The Conscience of the Queen

By Elsie Conner

"Leah Haley should not make money off the backs of real abductees who struggle every day..."

The motivation for this article is the blog written by Jack Brewer regarding Leah Haley's statements about alien abduction. There is no place in the blog where Leah states she is only referring to experiences in her own life. The statements she makes are hurtful, dismissive, and show a total lack of compassion for abductees such as myself who have been through some horrendous things in their lives.

This article is dedicated to alien abductees like me. I hope that people who read this who are not abductees take a moment to reflect on what is written here. This affects us all. I would like to start with an analogy and to explain in the briefest way I can to help you understand what it's been like for me.

I've had alien experiences for my entire life. When I was a child, I buried them. I couldn't accept them. I couldn't understand them. As I grew up, I continued what I had learned about how to handle these events. I buried these experiences the best I could. There came a time in my life when these Beings decided to change all that.

The character Neo in the movie The Matrix had a choice. Take the blue pill and everything remains the same. Or take the red pill and see what reality really is. Neo had a choice. I did not. These alien Beings intensified my conscious experiences over the years. They forced the red pill on me instead of giving me a choice. I still tried to explain everything away and bury the experiences. It was not the written word that convinced me I was an alien abductee. UFO books and hypnosis had nothing to do with it. It was them. It took them six years to break me. My reality shattered and like Neo, I was flushed down the tube and dumped into sludge. Nothing would ever be the same. I saw everything differently. My interests changed. I had to relearn how to get through the day. I had to figure out how to put reality back together again. It was agony. Unlike Neo, there was no Nebuchadnezzar to lift me up out of the sludge when I was flushed down the tube after my reality shattered. There was no crew of people to help me cope with this new reality. No one to nurse my body and mind back to health. No one to explain this new reality and what it means. I had to sink or swim on my own. There was no going back. UFOs and the Beings who pilot them are real. My old reality was forever gone. I could never live the old way again. I was in shock for a long time. My conscious experiences continue to this day and I've learned a great deal about these Beings and myself.

I feel a lot of people like me are alone. We suffer in ways others can't imagine. We don't write blogs, books, produce podcasts, or speak at conferences. We have very little in the way of support. A few of us may be lucky to have less than a handful of people we can talk to.

"It Doesn't Happen"

Leah Haley has claimed to be an alien abductee for decades. She has spoken at many conferences, written several books on the subject, and has done countless interviews. The title of Jack Brewer's blog is Leah Haley on Alien Abduction: "It doesn't happen." The title doesn't say Alien Abduction: "It never happened to me." I expect the Susan Clancys of the world to write nonsense about alien abduction. I expect newscasters to do their sneering giggles when they try to report a UFO story on the news. They're ignorant and they are road kill. But to have a self-proclaimed high profile abductee publish these kinds of hurtful statements, I had to address this. She does not speak for me.

Now Leah states that alien abductions don't happen and it's all a result of human technology. Astounding! This statement tells me a lot about her. She doesn't know much about alien abductions. As to the statement, "I really can explain every alien abduction away using human technology," where are these FOIA and U.S. Patent Office documents she mentions? If the U.S. military had alien technology, they would have sucked Bin Laden out through his bedroom window and not risked one of the military's new top of the line stealth helicopters to be handed over to the Chinese.

How can Leah Haley comment on "legitimate" reports of abduction when she admits she's never had one! She talks about finding humans in abductions and that means that abductions are human-instigated events. This shows a real ignorance of what can happen during an alien abduction. I have seen many Beings who looked human. The thing is, the more time you spend with them and look at them, there is something a little "off" about them. Especially around the eyes. They can also do things a human can't do. Alien Beings can make you think your significant other is with you during an abduction to keep more control over you. They use images of celebrities sometimes. Once the alien Beings had me perform a procedure on a male abductee. I was so afraid I was going to hurt him. It was awful, but they made me do it. If he remembered me, he would describe me as fully human. Then there are actual humans. Yes, they're human; they are other abductees. So is it surprising that abductees report humans along with alien Beings? Not to me it isn't.

Human Instigated Mind Control

The Brewer blog praises Leah Haley as someone who "provides us with a refreshingly transparent view of the path of an experience of high strangeness who embarked upon a sincere journey of investigation and self-discovery." He continues by stating "It is only natural that such a journey included evolving perspectives, changing over time, and it appears Haley happens to be secure enough to tell us when she changes her mind."

Secure enough to change her mind? How dare she claim she can tell what is a legitimate abduction account after asserting alien abduction doesn't happen!  No wonder she can "change her mind!" The comments that she's sincere, an experiencer, that she's evolving her perspectives that change over time, are beyond belief. I don't have the luxury of getting my old reality back. They (alien Beings) took it from me. Haley's perspectives on alien abduction are not mine. This is not a game. This is not a club you can join and decide when you want to quit. I wonder what her motives were in the first place Attention? Celebrity? Book sales?

Leah says she has spent, and I quote, "...thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars and years and years and years of research trying to find evidence that alien abductions occurred, the only evidence I found is of human-instigated mind control." 

This doesn't impress me at all. I don't have the luxury of saying it never happened. It's so absurd it's beyond comprehension. I'll never forget the things they did to me as a child and as I got older, the trauma and abuse over the decades. These were not the result of mind control experiments. To say that alien abductions are the result of mind control experiences is hurtful to me personally as someone who has suffered with having to cope with alien abductions all of my life. This idiotic, childish statement negates all that I have been through. I struggle everyday with the consequences of what I have experienced. Does "mind control experiments" explain all the physical, mental, and emotional hell I have been through? The medical problems and the physical injuries? No it doesn't! I have spent countless dollars on medical tests, specialists, therapists, and documenting what has happened to me. This has disrupted my life in so many ways. It was Leah's choice to spend money on her research and conferences. I spent my money on survival.

What exactly is accepting alien abduction at face value? As to Haley's comment, "Very few of us have ever questioned it to the extent that you and I obviously have..." this just makes no sense to me at all. When my reality shattered, I had more questions than I could tell you. It was endless. I rolled it all in my head until I was literally wanting to climb the walls. It's such a painful process. These comments about taking abduction at "face value" show a real lack of comprehension of what it takes to put your life back together again when you are an abductee. I've never accepted alien abduction at "face value" in my life. It took a lot of pressure from these Beings to force me to accept what was happening to me.

Electromagnetic Fields

Then there are the comments on overexposure to EMFs or Electromagnetic Fields: "Overexposure to EMFs was documented to cause hallucinations, nausea, short term amnesia (missing time) and reddened skin, circumstances which became staples of abductee testimonies." 

So hallucinations are a staple of abductee testimony? This sounds like a classic debunker theory to me. Hallucinations? So abductees are just hallucinating? EMFs can't even begin to explain anything about alien abduction. Haley says she has no concrete evidence of aliens. So she's never seen them, interacted with them, suffered any lasting emotional, mental, or physical effects? I could go on but what would be the point? She's not demonstrated that she understands anything about alien abductions at all.

I'm confident I would have had plenty of "concrete evidence" of alien abduction if I had a specialized facility to go to after an abduction. I know there has been a lot of physical evidence over the years. But there is no facility of specialists to gather evidence and treat abductees. There is no help for us. We are on our own. But it seems it is always our fault that we don't have the concrete evidence in our hands. We abductees are our own individual team of investigators, forensic scientists, and medical doctors, and we take samples on our own and run all of the tests. And where exactly do we take this material if we have it?

Hovering Helicopter

Leah talks about her husband observing a helicopter hovering within 100 feet of their house while she was having abduction-like visions, non-ordinary states of consciousness and the sensation of hearing voices in her head with paralysis. Many abductees including myself have had military harassment off and on. I have had helicopters hover and circle around my house at extremely low altitudes but I have never felt anything but fear and anger. I never hallucinated or had visions of any kind. I would call my husband and take photographs. I never got sick from the harassment. They eventually moved on and left me alone. I fight back any way I can when this happens. It's just intimidation. I wonder what Leah Haley's abduction-like visions were actually like since she admits she never had an alien abduction? And, where are the photographs of the helicopter that was hovering just 100 feet from her house? If a few helicopters scare her to the point of hallucinations, I wonder what a real alien abduction would do? I think I know the answer to that.

Leah Haley's comments regarding compassion and responsibility are offensive and gross to me as someone who has survived alien abduction for my entire life. I live the pain of constant denial from society as a whole. There are a many people in the UFO community who don't believe in alien abductions either. I see words all the time like alien abduction dogma as mentioned in Brewer's and the orangeorb blog about Leah Haley and alien abduction mythology.

Here are the definitions of these terms:

Dogma

1. an official system of principles or tenets concerning faith, morals, behavior, etc., as of a church. Synonyms: doctrine, teachings, set of beliefs, philosophy.

2. a specific tenet or doctrine authoritatively laid down, as by a church: the dogma of the Assumption; the recently defined dogma of papal infallibility. Synonyms: tenet, canon, law.

3. prescribed doctrine proclaimed as unquestionably true by a particular group: the difficulty of resisting political dogma.

4. a settled or established opinion, belief, or principle: the classic dogma of objectivity in scientific observation. Synonyms: conviction, certainty.

Myth

1. a traditional or legendary story, usually concerning some Being or hero or event, with or without a determinable basis of fact or a natural explanation, especially one that is concerned with deities or demigods and explains some practice, rite, or phenomenon of nature.

2. stories or matter of this kind: realm of myth.

3. any invented story, idea, or concept: His account of the event is pure myth.

4. an imaginary or fictitious thing or person.

5. an unproved or false collective belief that is used to justify a social institution.

Alien abduction is not dogma or mythology to me. I and others have suffered so much trauma, lack of acceptance, and dismissal throughout our lives. This has affected every single aspect of my life. Alien abduction is not a church, it is not imaginary, fictitious, a false collective belief, myth or any of these things.

"No Alien Abductions Ever Took Place"

Leah Haley has made it clear she never was an alien abductee. I would tell Leah this:

"Yes Leah, there are indeed aliens in alien abduction. I am relieved for you that you never had to experience what we abductees have. I can guarantee that if you were an alien abductee, you would never have made the comments that you made in this blog written by Jack Brewer. Take some responsibility for your actions by pulling all of your alien abduction books off the market immediately. Especially the book you wrote for children. Don't take part in the continued abuse suffered by children from these alien Beings. Do the right thing and show some compassion."

Leah Haley should not make money off the backs of real abductees who struggle every day to try and get through the day as normally as possible.

I want to leave a few words for the people who understand the issues I have talked about in this article. I hope I have spoken to topics that have affected you as deeply as they did me. There's not much we can do against the tide of alien abduction debunking going on within the UFO community other than to support each other and offer words of comfort when we can. Sometimes we have to stand up and fight for our stories, our reality, and our voices to be heard. We have passion for the truth, compassion for what we have endured, and a responsibility to tell it. Good luck to all of you.

-- Elsie Conner, © October 2011

A Special Note about Jack Brewer's Idea of Circumstantial Evidence:

In the Brewer blog, neither Leah Haley nor Jack Brewer provided the names or any references to the FOIA and U.S. Patent documents to which they referred to as their evidence. However, Brewer did go as far as to include a photograph of the "UFO House" on Pensacola Beach, as one of his first items under the subheading "Circumstantial Evidence."

Brewer's caption under the photograph states: "The UFO House of Pensacola Beach serves as an eerie reminder of the Gulf Breeze UFO craze that snowballed into a frenzy."

The "UFO House of Pensacola Beach" had absolutely nothing to do with the "Gulf Breeze craze" to which Jack Brewer referred. According to Zillow and other public records for the area, the "UFO House" was built in 1966 - twenty-one years prior to the Gulf Breeze Sightings. Furthermore:

"The UFO house in Pensacola is said to have been made because of aliens and what not. But the truth is the structure is built like a UFO to lift up and float if the area is ever flooded out -- hit by a bad rainstorm, or more likely a hurricane. I just wanted people to know that. The aliens are put up in the windows out of humor. But still the house is very interesting. I know this because I live here. [Joy, 09/15/2005]. 

• rent rates on Zillow

Beds:	--
Baths:	2
Sqft:	1,268
Lot:	17,424 sq ft / 0.40 acres
Type:	Single Family
Year built:	1966
Last sold:	March 01 1998 for $155,000
Parking:	--
Cooling:	Central
Heating:
Fireplace:	--

This is a 1268 square foot, 2.0 bathroom, single family home. It is located at 1304 Panferio Dr Pensacola Beach, Florida. The nearest schools are Pensacola Beach Elementary School and Gulf Breeze High School.

Articles and Artwork by Elsie Conner

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More Information About Gulf Breeze and Abductions

For More Information About Haley Recanting her Alien Abduction Encounters click here.